I’m just wondering about the verse, “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us” (Rom. 5:8).
While there was absolutely no selfish reason for it, You loved me because that is just who You are. Though I had nothing to offer, You gave everything to gain me. I was shameful. I was filthy. But You took it upon Yourself to purchase white robes for me with Your own blood. I was dust. But when You looked at me You saw what You could do for me. You’ve loved me like no other. I am not worthy to inhabit one of Your imaginations, because they are so much higher than I am, yet Your thoughts of me outnumber the innumerable grains of sand.
I am so used to knowing love as human, or conditional. But the way You define love is so radical that every day I am simply amazed. Flabbergasted. Because of Your own divine nature You have served me. Even when I am so demonically proud to think that I for a second deserve Your holy hands to touch my dirty feet, You are faithful to Your transcendent character and humble Yourself to wash them. I won’t ever understand, but I will be forever grateful.
Even giving You my natural best is like offering You filthy rags, yet because You have worked righteousness in me by Your own effort my prayers are a sweet incense to You. Because of Your Spirit in me, You are able to delight in me. You adopted this orphan and now You favor me as Your own daughter, and You are making me fit for Your kingdom from the inside out. “Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever” (Ps. 107:1).